I have finally aired my true thoughts to nicola. As much as i love her and care for her, we argue too much, and i just feel something isn’t right. So, i have ended it. Sooner rather than later. I feel really shit right now, and i imagine she feels the same. But i cant go back on my word, and i cant forget the reasons i had for doing it. They all appear so cloudy right now, but like last time as soon as i go back on my word i will know it was the wrong thing to do. I know she will hate me deep down, but one day she will thank me for it.