Every so often, i see myself getting totally uninteresting. I have had my “Write new post” page open ALL day, and i just couldnt think of anything to start it off with! Ive not really done anything apart from go out with scott in the car. My days are becoming a blurr of similarity.
After trax me, scott and ko have said we’ll stop smoking weed (bwhahaha) If we all try and do it, then its gonna be easier. As if i try and quit alone, scott has some.. or ko.. And visa versa. If we ALL quit, and help each other fill the empty voids of timeÂ that willl suddenly occur, we should have a better chance of actually quitting.
I dont really wanna quit for my health, i wanna quit for financial reasons. If im gonna be renting a house then im gonna need to be very tight with my money. Which means no more subways.. no more weed.. and no more trainers 🙁 I just hope i can get someone to move in with me as then i can split the bills 2 ways and it makes it a hell of a lot easier to live.
My heads up my arse in regards women and relationships at the moment. I want a girlfriend, but i dont want to go thru a traumatic breakup in a few years when i decide to do one. I guesss like stu said on a comment – 3 years is a long time for a relationship to develop, and thats plenty of time for it to fuck up 😆 But knowing me it wouldnt, it would go swimmingly, then id have to break both my heart and the heart of some girl as i board the train destined for the middle of knowhere.
But that doesnt mean i cant be happy, right? I guess i could always travel with a girlfriend, but TBH id be scared to do that in case something happened to her, or in case i met the woman of my dreams half way round the world. But whos gonna want to go out with someone, knowing they are not gonna be around for long. There has to be someone?
I miss those moments chillin out with someone sprawled all over me. I miss the walking round and holding hands. I miss the companionship of a female in my life. But should i try and hold these things off so that i dont get to attached?