Author: Olly

ok, so its xmas. doesnt feel like xmas still. im sat at home, its 13:08 and im all by myself. had 1 proesent to open that mat gave me, it was a adidas wallet. a nice one too. my mum is away this xmas, and im goin to my dads at 4 for dinnerm so i wont be on my own all day. i have always hated xmas, as its so close to my birthday and new years, it sort of steals me thunder if u like.

thought i was gonna have a repeat of last year whereby i lost my girl just b4 xmas. but we sorted things out. im still pretty happy as well, but i got a few things runnin thur my mind that wont go away.

tbh, i feel very alone at the minute. i know i have my family and my girlfriend and shit, but i bet im the only person i know who is alone right now. on me tod. oh well, ill see people later.

got a WEEK off work, oh my god its gonna be amazing, ive not had a week off in MONTHS. then back to work for a bit, and hopefully maddsy will sort out that job at mmx3.com for me, and i can get out that bastard factory.

anyway, fuck this, im gonna celebrate xmas by myself for a bit with weed and very loud music.

happy holidays people. 🙂

been so busy lately, got some news on my current job at the mo today. at metalbox every temp employee gets layed off at the end of the year, if not earlyer. i was one of the lucky 12 or so that lasted up till december, then down to 6. the woman came round and got 3 of us in a room, and basically were NOT gettin layed off this year, because were needed, so we break up xmas eve, and go back 4th jan.

week and 1 day off, paied as well which is cool, and the first in jan pay i will get my holiday money! for all the days off i have gatherd up, and not used.

BUT.. this brings me to my first problem. i was hoping i would get LAYED OFF xmas eve, and i would of recieved my holiday money that day as its a friday (pay day) and i would of finished at half 11 in the mornin, so i could of gone to meadowhall with me mate, and bought all my xmas prezzies. so now i cant. unless by some stroke of pure miricle i get loads of money for my trebles this week, which i wont.

so xmas is cancelled

feel really shady as well, cos nic is the kind of girl who go’s all out with everyhitng, which means she will go all out and get me something rate cool for xmas, and at this rate im not gonna be able to get her anything.

didnt really hit me untill i just wrote that then, jesus, why the fuck have i let this happen? to be fair its simply because it does not feel like xmas, there are no decorations up in this house, the ONLY thing that could signify that it is xmas time is the fact there is one stood up xmas card on the fire, and from here i can barely see it.

yeah i see xmas lights on houses an stuff, but it DOES NOT feel like xmas. is this what happens when you get to 21? you start to see life for what it really is? xmas decorations aint for fun, they are there to remind us adults its xmas, otherwise we would forget.

it has felt like i have just got about 3 years older writing this entry.

im enlightned. (did i spell that right too??)

crazy :/

yeah, shes got narrowing of the arteries (spellin) and it basically means she gets out of breath very easily, because the blood cannot be pumped around her body fast enough. they are keepin her in for testing, taking her to notts actually, and if needed she will have her arteries made bigger!

its horrible seeing her there with wires and shit coming off her, horrible. hope its not for too much longer.

still not heard anything about that job, hope its soon its winding me up. you would think that a massive organisation would be able to print some letters for an interview within a week, everyone who applies gets interviewed you see, so it could even be automated, jsut cant take there fingers off the vending machine buttons long enuff to push the PRINT one!

haha

worked a 9am-9pm shift on saturday, and it was the worst, longest, most borin shift i have ever done in my life! dragged so much, and me mate was doin 6am-6pm so it seemed so unfair when he went home at 6 🙁 earnt me bout £100 tho. tax and MOT for saxslo you see :/ oooo new windscreen in the saxo now 🙂 hehe through insurance.

and i RATE need a mini digger and a skip! for a weekend. ARGHH thats gonna cost a bit i expect!

got to go see nic now. peace out for now homies 🙂

im ded confused. right do i go for a decent job in metalbox, on 21k, line leader, on 3 shifts (days afters and nights) or a not so decent job at metalbox for about 13k, just days and afters.. OR do i go for a weekend job, 12 hours on saturday, and 12 on sunday, and still get paid a full weeks wage.. and that wud leave me the whole week to start busnesses and sleep and shit.

i dont want a ded “set in stone” perminant job, cos i am likley to want to leave at any time if other developments go well.. i really want my own business, my own shop or summat, so the weekend one wud be cool.. but arrgg i dunno.

and cars.. ffs.. right fuckin me off.

stil got nic tho. she makes me happy. 🙂