Author: Olly

ok first, my N key is playin up, so excuse me if i miss a few now and then! second, i got girl trouble.

basically im i a relationship. and i cant figure out if i want it and im happy, i want ONE but not this one, or i dont want one and im not happy. ya get me?

nic is a lovely girl, and the good times are fantastic, but there are one or 2 things about her that really wind me up. 1 is that i dont no her past, and she talks as if he has been around a lot, which puts me off, but then i think, well shit, so have i, and so has 50% of the population!

another thing, is that she is 18, and is just becomeing an adult. now although she clames to of lived away from home for a year, she does not seem to have the independance and knowledge a nest leaver should have. i.e. she uses LOADS of washing up liquid when you only need a smidgin, 😉 and she is very wastefull when it comes to food and stuff. she is quite immature at times, and i dont have the patience.

but then i think, in this next year she will start to grow up properly, become less immature, and become a much sounder person.

time will tell i guess.

im still stuck in the limbo that is metalbox. same shit, everyday. im still waiting for mr maddox to sort me a job out at mmx3.com which is in walking distance of my house, which means i can sell saxo and not have to worry about havin a car for a bit. BUT i cant do anything till i got that job. grrr.

got 3 new pairs of trainers, some bo black superstars wi white soles and a mad pattern on them, some white ultrastars that are basically bling, and some random cumfy adidads ones for when i wear blue 🙂

and ive set a random forum up for a guy – www.excelsagaforum.com – its about some very bizzare manga experimetal cartoon, ive seen the first episode and its very, VERY strange. im gonna take a look at some of the other episodes cos apparently the first one is a bit “erratic” lol.

i can feel myself falling asleep as i type, so im gonna make sure i aint ball’sed up any of the words, save it, and hit the sack. after ive cleared up the mass of clothes on my bed 🙁

oh yeah, i got a ipod! well, i won one on ebay, but it hasnt come yet, hopefully it will come today. *crosses fingers*

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ive not added one post on here since i turned 21! 🙂

i got this \/ for my bday, i was very very happy when i saw it 🙂

well, 21, i dunno you no, i seem to feel very grown up, seems that over my week off, i have ACTUALLY become a year older, i know i HAVE actually become older, but it seems like i have mentally aged a year as well.

this time next month, mark my words, i will be progressing my life in the sence i will be finishin the saxo off, clearing my garage out to put my caddy in, and starting work on the caddy! i have saved up some cash to start tidying saxo, gearbox n stuff, nothings stoppin me now!

me and nic are still together, im pretty happy, but i couldnt say wether or not i will still be with her in a year. i dunno, prob me just being negative.

ive quit everything but weed as well, as i was still dabbeling in a few other things. cant afford em, and i cant be doin with the effect wether they be good or bad.

AND. im gonna buy a ipod, they are cool as fuck. 🙂

buisness things are lookin good too, goin to see the accountant to sort a few things and we can release our little venture 🙂

peece out for now 🙂

ok, so its xmas. doesnt feel like xmas still. im sat at home, its 13:08 and im all by myself. had 1 proesent to open that mat gave me, it was a adidas wallet. a nice one too. my mum is away this xmas, and im goin to my dads at 4 for dinnerm so i wont be on my own all day. i have always hated xmas, as its so close to my birthday and new years, it sort of steals me thunder if u like.

thought i was gonna have a repeat of last year whereby i lost my girl just b4 xmas. but we sorted things out. im still pretty happy as well, but i got a few things runnin thur my mind that wont go away.

tbh, i feel very alone at the minute. i know i have my family and my girlfriend and shit, but i bet im the only person i know who is alone right now. on me tod. oh well, ill see people later.

got a WEEK off work, oh my god its gonna be amazing, ive not had a week off in MONTHS. then back to work for a bit, and hopefully maddsy will sort out that job at mmx3.com for me, and i can get out that bastard factory.

anyway, fuck this, im gonna celebrate xmas by myself for a bit with weed and very loud music.

happy holidays people. 🙂

been so busy lately, got some news on my current job at the mo today. at metalbox every temp employee gets layed off at the end of the year, if not earlyer. i was one of the lucky 12 or so that lasted up till december, then down to 6. the woman came round and got 3 of us in a room, and basically were NOT gettin layed off this year, because were needed, so we break up xmas eve, and go back 4th jan.

week and 1 day off, paied as well which is cool, and the first in jan pay i will get my holiday money! for all the days off i have gatherd up, and not used.

BUT.. this brings me to my first problem. i was hoping i would get LAYED OFF xmas eve, and i would of recieved my holiday money that day as its a friday (pay day) and i would of finished at half 11 in the mornin, so i could of gone to meadowhall with me mate, and bought all my xmas prezzies. so now i cant. unless by some stroke of pure miricle i get loads of money for my trebles this week, which i wont.

so xmas is cancelled

feel really shady as well, cos nic is the kind of girl who go’s all out with everyhitng, which means she will go all out and get me something rate cool for xmas, and at this rate im not gonna be able to get her anything.

didnt really hit me untill i just wrote that then, jesus, why the fuck have i let this happen? to be fair its simply because it does not feel like xmas, there are no decorations up in this house, the ONLY thing that could signify that it is xmas time is the fact there is one stood up xmas card on the fire, and from here i can barely see it.

yeah i see xmas lights on houses an stuff, but it DOES NOT feel like xmas. is this what happens when you get to 21? you start to see life for what it really is? xmas decorations aint for fun, they are there to remind us adults its xmas, otherwise we would forget.

it has felt like i have just got about 3 years older writing this entry.

im enlightned. (did i spell that right too??)

crazy :/