today, im gonna leave work happy. not happy because i got paid today and already i only have £14 left, not happy because my new camo adidas jacket still hasn’t come, and definatly not happy knowing the amount of paperwork i have got to do at home is taller than me..
im happy because my new website (www.superstarDB.com) is taking off! and the members are rolling in!!
got the maxxd meet tonight, im happy happy happy 🙂
i guess even though i have a loving girlfriend, and a bunch of mates that got my back, i still feel very alone sometimes. i feel that no one really understands me, and i HONESTLY beleve that no one listens to me. even when i talk to my mum she hums and nods and doesn’t really pay any attention to what im saying. and it gets really annoying. i really want to make a difference, i want to prove to people im not worthless, that im reliable, and that i can do the things i talk about.
i guess im sick of waiting tho. constantly waiting for this, and for that.. mainly waiting for people to do something.. before i can do something else, but a lot of it is just me being lazy. i really should sort my life out. i have 3 car’s again, and STILL haven’t sold my saxo.. i have been selling it for 2 years now!! haha
things in waiting to do right now..
a) sort my car number plate out
b) sell my saxo
3) do my caddy up more + fix it
f) put my polo thru a service
6) start security work
7) save up for a holiday
8) finish decorating my bedroom
the list could go on, i just dont want to be reminded of all the shit ive gotta motivate my lazy ass to do. Ill try and garage my caddy, and clean up the saxo this week, as they are little jobs that will free up cash etc.
jobs and maxxd.. where do i start? i was supposed to be using my new skills as a security officer to get some night security work, and start raking a bit of cash in to clear some debts.. that allows me to move out of daz’s and get a flat.. for moi and nicola.. but now dave has said he’s not doing that any more, he’s gonna get a normal job again, as he needs the money.
i think im still gonna do the security work, as its a good way of gettin a lot of cash in a short space of time. i dont think ill do it forever tho. but ill defiantly keep it in my mind as id love to start a security company one day. fingers in pies n all that.
over the last few days i have been dwelling over a new idea i had. scott introduced me to a place, that would be PERFECT for some kind of permanent cruise location. and since hearing the police are clamping down on MFN, with asbo’s and shit, the timing couldn’t be perfect.
i just need to find out who the location belongs to, and see if they will sell it! (or rent it)
bedrooms nearly decorated, me and nicola had a whole bunch of arguments over the weekend, its because she takes painting SO seriously! i think im probably one of the most laid back people on the planet!
work to do anywho, catch u later potata’
nearly the end of my tenth day as wiggy. if i was coming into work on monday, i would be going back to my normal routine! thank FUCK! BUT im not going into work on monday, cos its my week off for my course. should be interesting, i hope i pass, dave did. and if dave did, then so can i!
it has been so boring today, because ted has been selling we have NO work in at all, there is no women in the sewing room, cos there’s nothing to sew, there’s hardly any one here, except me ted maddsy wendy and dee. so ive sat here and sorted my computer out, cleared up my documents folder, and deleted any crap, uploaded any useful things to my various website’s, and left it in a almost perfectly organised manner. just got these pics of cars to upload, its taking fucking ages tho!!
going swimming when i finish work, with nic. it should be great fun, because i dont think she realises im quite a good swimmer, and i can hold my breath, and open my eyes under water. so watch out! im starving tho, cos i didn’t want o eat too much today in case it had an effect on me in the water LOL. hopefully i can still swim, as i haven’t been for a LONG time.. i bathed in spain, but it was hardly swimming!
and last but not least.. i have got a new coat! its a big MMX3.com one, that i found in the store cupboard, its ret warm and its ret big. and i stole it, with permission of course!
im off to add a few more pics, and then go to the baths. if i dont post again, i drowned lol.
as i sit here drinking my hot chocolate, a million thoughts run thru my brain. what am i gona do tonight? what am i gonna eat? where am i gonna get weed from? all these questions and an immense lack of “being arsed” lol.
work this week is draggin like a bitch, but luckily for me i dont have to answer to geoffrey bubbles, only to ted, who s a hell of a lot older, but a lot less of a nob. the work im having to do is still fucking crap tho!
i want this week to be over, as its my training course next week, and after that i can start security guarding! ive had an idea too, not only could i make a lot of money doing the security job, but after i finish it, when im out of my debt hole, i can move onto door security, and maybe work down town. i have a mate who can hook me up, and its not like im small and feeble or anything. TBH ive wanted to work on the doors for ages, as i get to witness a herd of pissed up people being dumb as fuck all night, and get paid for it!
its 17:08, i could go now if i wanted to, but ill wait till maddsy or ted leaves, so i dont look too keen 🙂