Category: Weblog

Quite recently search engines have been buzzing around our websites. Maxxd, SSDB.. and this one. And i becasue of this sudden increase in search engine bot violation my wordpress blog seems to of attracted the spammers!

I believe its some form of bot that tralws the internet finding wordpress installations then basically commenting on things with stupid fucking ad’s such as..

Name: poker hands | E-mail: poker_hands@loan.XXX | URI: hXXp://eteamz.active.XXX/moneymanagement/files/poker-hands.html | IP: 70.84.176.58 | Date: August 15, 2006

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This guy on his blog go’s into some detail about how it works, its late and my eyes are frosting over so im gonna have a better read of it tomorrow. I guess the technology behind the spam bots is pretty impressive – its a shame they couldnt put it to better use.

The last hour has SHOT by, i was in for an early night too. I seem to have some form of cold – which is pretty shocking as its supposed to be summer. Either that or im finally allergic to something or im sufforing from hayfever for the first time. My eyes itch too?

And i didnt get those fucking websites finished. I must rememebr to do them. Its taking the mick now!

We went from 1024mb ram, to 1536mb today. We have been thinking low memory may be the reason for the load shooting high. As the server was using Virtual Memory, and the VM process was using up the load. Or so djb had told me anyway. it seems to be doing the trick tho.

Load Average 1 = 1.12

It hasnt gone above that so far, it has only been up 26 min since the ram was installed tho, so i guess only time will tell. Its half the memory again tho, so it should be more then enough.

I feel ok today, a bit down but it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Im back to not having to think about someone else’s feelings etc. I know that sounds horribly selfish, but truth be told – im not very good at thinking for other people, i find it hard enough conentrating on my own life, never mind other peoples. So i guess that makes me pretty incompatible with the whole dating game. Nic was differnet cos she became part of my life (which i didnt want) instead of living hers along side mine.

Im gonna go home tongiht, and i recon im ACTUALLY going to finish these websites off. Its about time! I know!

I was in a very raw mood earlyer, the worst monday on record. So many things running through my mind. Literally the only typing i did was on here, maxxd, SSDB, ebay and in notepad writing rhymes. I did no work. I was very stressed n depressed. Its down to me being a pretty paranoid person in general, various aspects of my life, including the relationship i was in.

Yep thats right, me and H have decided to call it a day. It wasnt a very full on relationship anyway, that was never the intention, but i kind of fell for her in a big way, and i kinda starting going down the path of me wanting more from the relationship. Now it would be totally unfair of me to ask her to take things any further, its not fair. Because at the end of the day 2/3 years down the line when i want to fuck off round the world and leave everyone, it would be so difficult to leave. Especially if the relationship had moved on leaps and bounds.

And (like last time) we had just started to become good friends again. Shes one of the nicest most loving and most interesting people i have ever met in my life. And i will definatly keep in touch with her. I have fond memories from now, and the first time we tried. And im glad we gave it another go.

Time to move on? I really dont no what to do to be honest. I dont want to be in another situation like this. I think ill just bury my head for a bit and get some of the millions of outstanding things done and out the way.

Peace out.

I have been thinking a LOT about when i go travelling. And thanks to a Richard and Judy (i think it was them) i have decided on the first place i want to go.

http://www.cwaf.org/

I have got to go be a Chimp Dad for a bit! I cant think of a better way of spending a year of my life, than helping orphaned monkeys! You have to act like a monkey in the sence you have to let them cling to you at all times. You basically spend your days working in the park, with your monkey on your back.