Category: My Past

Another wank weekend of work and dodgy sleep patterns. I guess its all money in the bank, but id prefer to laze about all weekend. I rang thor up today, and hopefully i should get some cash for the security i have been doing, and with it im gonna buy 12 pairs of trainers, and a weekend in amsterdam. I think I’ve earnt it, and it might be the last place i go to for a good few years – In fact, it might be the last break i have between now and when im 25. I don’t just want to go to amsterdam for the weed (hehe) i want to go because it is a very beautiful country, and i have been meaning to go for a long time.

Ill start to research my mini trip soon, find some places to stay and cool places to visit. I think i may like to go by myself too. What is wrong with me. Am i weird wanting to be by myself? – I guess if im by myself then i cant hurt anyone’s feelings or piss anyone off.

Splitting with nic has brought on other unwanted problems. Like before, id hardly spend any of my money on food, so now i have got a huge gap in my life, that really does need filling. I know one thing tho, im defiantly not jumping into another relationship again. Not until i have done all the things i want to do.

I best get back to my work here, as boring and repetitive as it may be!

I have again stumbled upon more evidence that points to this world being full of complete and utter pricks. I was chatting to dave (djb31st) about stuff, and we started chatting about WoW. (World Of Warcraft) – Now for anyone that doesn’t know what WoW is, its a online game that depicts battles between orc’s and humans. People can play in teams, over the internet, or play against computer generated characters.

Right, for starters, people have DIED playing these games. I don’t just mean in the game, i mean people have actually taken their own lives, as a result of either playing too much or getting too involved! And of course people over the world have been dying of exhaustion after marathon long WoW sessions. And to make matters worse, games like this have caused “Virtual Sweatshops” to appear. Where “Employees” play games for 10 hours – and earn around £2.80. They build up characters until they are really high ranked etc, then sell them for £1000’s on ebay! I think it proves how twisted society is. Whenever there is a chance for some sweaty bastard to make a buck or two, they do – and they extort loads of people along the way.

The more life drags on, the more i think i really really want a simple life. I don’t want to be stressing all the time, i don’t want to be at work 9 to 5 everyday. I want to wake up when i wake up, eat when I’m hungry and work when i need too. Give me an amazonian lifestyle (minus the cannibalism) any day!

Did you ever find yourself stuck between two people. I don’t mean lovers, or even women for this matter. I mean two friends, that say different things about the same situation. Its a really uncomfortable position to be in, as one person who you have know forever and ever says one thing. And another person you have known for about as long as the other person says something totally different.

I’m obviously talking about a situation that has arisen in my life. I’m not gonna name names, because there is no need too, but the situation on a whole started off a tiny weeny little thing, and it has escalated into the demise of a ltd company!

There was a disagreement, about an order that was placed under this companies name. I (me personally) wasn’t there when the discussions about this “order” were “finalised” or not finalised depending on who you believe, yet the other people were. Now one of the people involved stated that the sole reason they were there, and the person producing the product had been brought up, was to finalise the order. Talk quantity’s and prices.

But, according to the other person involved , this conversation never went into as much detail as it seems it did. Quantities were never spoken about, and no cost was ever mentioned. – Yet the other person, and the guy who was making the shit, both said they definably remember talking in more detail about the order. – I don’t want to believe any of my friends lie to me, but someone is telling porkies!!

Anyway, this has gone on for months and months, I’ve had so much stress over it, its untrue. And for a while i was siding with one of the parties. But now i don’t know where i stand. All i know is the only involvement i am having is that I’m gonna try and resolve the situation, without anymore legal letters and arguments.

Things seem to be getting better by the day. I have cheered up a shit load today. I think its because i have had my mind on other things all day. Going ice skating with maxxd later, it should be a right laff…. I haven’t been in a while but i bet I’m still rate good haha

I have spoke to tony and vicky today, and just doing that has helped me a shit load. Tony has had a bit of bad time with relationships recently, and so has vicky. I chatted to them individually and they gave me some good advice. You cant beat being told it will be alright by people that have been in that situation before. Give you a feeling of relief.

I don’t think i will ever get over the guilt of braking her heart tho. I wish she hated me, it would be so much easier! And by the way, in a previous post i mentioned a name i could of called her mum, i wasn’t actually calling her that, i was using it as an example of how i could of made her hate me.