Category: My Past

Ok, i have been on about travelling for ages now, and i really want to go. Today djb pipes up him and nole and going to greece to work for a few months.. and dave is going to move down with his dad, and then move over to america in a year or two.

🙁

Everyones doing what they want to do except me. All i ask is to win 10 grand on the lottery. Id be off then! I know ill get there eventually, but how long is “eventually” ? I hope it isnt too long. – If only i had no debt 🙁
I guess when they have come back to settle into theri 9 to 5’s again, i will be off on my travels. And whereas both of them plan to come back to the UK, i dont. Well, i dont think i want to come back. I guess i wont know until im out there.

It makes me sad knowing im YEARS away from acheiving my dream. 🙁

I sat there last night before i went to bed, and i was gonna write a blog entry. But i could not for the life of me think of enough shit to talk about. So i didnt bother. As i had lots of sleep on sunday morning, i struggled to get to sleep – then only to wake about half 7 and lay awake for a hour as i was restless.

There has been quite a few discussions that have caught my attention today on maxxd.com. One of which is about Building Number 7  – of the world trade complex. I hadnt really given it much thought to be honest, and until today i didnt even know building number 7 had come down. This myspace account kept me hooked on its detailed controversial information about how they think that the trade center buildings were brought down in a series of controlled explosions – but timed to perfection to make it look like suicide bombers who had hyjacked a plane with the intentions of flying it into the towers – caused this modern day disaster.

I think most of the evidence is pretty sketchy, apart from that of “Building number 7” – I think the .gov have shot themselves in the foot with that one! If they had left that one building, none of this speculation would of arised!

Where will it end though? They cant CSI the crime scence, as its been cleared away. They cant interview anyone on any of the planes, they cant ask anyone who was high up in the building. Will the truth ever be proven??

Was this just the biggest insurance job in history?

And when does your heart repair itself after you broke it? 🙁

If theres one thing that used to annoy me when i was in a relationship, and in fact it annoys me throughout my life – its when people presume. Nic used to presume i wanted food when i got home for example, when i didnt, and today my ride home informed me that i was to be picked up at 6:30am sunday morning for a 12 hour shift. They presumed i would do it so booked me in. I got straight on the blower as i specifically said i could not work on the sunday as i was getting parts for my car from the scrap yard with my father.

I have just got a voice mail – they managed to cover it with someone else. Its great when you go direct to the top of the company’s ladder and ring the director. He backed me up as he remembered me saying i couldnt do it.

I thought i had blagged internet all day today. The site i was at has computers and a network n stuff. I tried plugging my laptop into their network but they had some sort of firewall in place. When i did a tracert it found the first hop then was stopped.

The shift went pretty quick tho, i watched two films. How High, and Resident Evil. Both brilliant films! How high is SO funny, its Redman and Method Man in a killer stoner comedy! And, well resident evil just kicks ass. 🙂

Its nearly 9pm, hmm, what shall i do with my night.. 🙂

Ok, so i post on 28days, a URBEX forum that is, well.. its great! The people are sound and some of the members have some right balls when it comes to going in different locations. Some of the sites they do would NEVER be on my to-do list.. Far too risky!

Anyway, i posted a picture of me sat in a chair.. and i just happend to have a grinder sat one my lap *rolls eyes* – One of the members thought he best point out to me that its not a good idea to post images of myself in a site – with a grinder on my lap.

The subject of what i post on the internet has been brought to my attention before, and like before, i reminded this person of a few pointers that he was obviously unaware of

1) I have run a freely accessable blog, outlining most of my life – for a good 3 years. So if anyone wants to find out anythng about me, they can – just type olstar in google! LOL
2) i have collected images from camera phones for longer than ive blogged for, and some of the images would get me in a lot more trouble than the one of me being sat in a derolict hospital with a grinder in my lap.

3) i wont accept that a person such as my self, will ever be penalized for anything i have ever written on the internet. Ok, some people do (*coff* david, or was it stu? :P) but im not in a position, nor ever will be in a position where ill be checked up for purpouses of a job or a refrence, using the internet.

I pointed a few things out to him, and after a few exchanged messages he kinda realised it really doesnt concern me – but im left thinking this..

Is it really wise of me to record the things i record?

Should i censor my life so that people dont know the real me?