Category: My Past

  • Caught Up

    I have managed to accumilate LOTS of extra sleep this week, which has helped me in the mornings cos im not very good at mornings. Ive been opening my eyes at about 7, and just dozing about for an hour. Its been marvelous!

    Starting to get bogged down at the mo tho, so many things i need to do, and NO nmotivation at all. I managed to get karls site pretty much finished, well at least i think its about finished. Ive jsut got to find that bloody CD he gave me, so that i can add images to his gallery etc. Then i can finish that, and the amen corner one, and at least thats a few thigns out the way and some extra cash in the bank.

    I MUST motivate myself when i get home.. I have GOT to finish at least one of them befreo i go out tongiht.. GO OLLY GO!

    Im really getting pissed off with my laziness when it comes to my cars too. My clio is blatently broken, and im kinda ignoring it and continuing using it, even though i know the wheels gonna fall off soon. Or something equally as dangerous. If i die in a car crash that turns out to be my own fault, i expect no sympathy!

    I guess i have been waiting for scott. I need his big ass jack so i can get under the back of my caddy. I want to use it so much, its not even funny 🙁 I must of had it 4 years now and using it for about 1 week of that max is pretty ridiculas! It doesnt even need that much to get it working. Damm my laziness!

    AND, im gettin sick t the back teeth with people hasstleing me for stuff. Help with this, help with that. I have enough on trying to live my own life never mind help everybody else live their fuckers!

    Fin.

  • For the first time..

    In months, ive gone massivly overdrawn. Fuck. Another £35 fucking charge. Its robbery. I actually rang my bank up not too long ago and complained tha the charges were preventing me from ever being able to get out of the hole i was in. Debt is the most vicious circle of all.

    I do get paid tomorrow, but i have still got to get through today with no food or anything. I could of done with filling my car up too. Ah well. Maybe if the weathers actualyl nice this afternoon, ill find the time to go to my caddy and do a few bits and bobs to that. I know i cant do much, but if i just get the engine back together, and maybe wack some jump leads on it. Ill see if i can start it up.

    Kinda getting really stressed out at the minute, i need to get a few sites finished SOON as then ill get paid from them etc. Money = savings = travelling = happy.

  • Feel the burn

    After something like 3 or 4 days pretty much staring at a computer screen, i go straight ahead and work two 12 hour security shifts. One saturday daytime and one sunday day time. Its 1/4 to eleven and im absalutley shattered. I should of gone to bed hours go really, im never gonna feel 100% for work tomorrow. Burnout! &*^”*()^error
    Although ive not really done much but sit in a portacabin, walk round a bit and watch films and make websites -  ive still managed to have some kind of a weekend. Allbeit a small one. And as small as it may of been, it was one of the best evenings ive had in months. And the night was made so special by a certain someone whos really brighteneing a recent dark patch of my life up.. 🙂
    Meh. im tired. Brain has actually stopped functioning properly now and im struggeling to even move my fingers – so ill waffle some more tomorrow.

  • As Hannibal would say..

    As we travel through this life, so hectic,
    It moves so fast dont blink, you might miss it,
    Paths lay down our feet, right before us,
    Desisions to make, the plan is not flawless,
    What do you do if you choose the wrong pathway?
    A bad choice once, now seems like the right way?
    And then one day for me, a pathway appeared,
    I start to venture down it, dispite all that i feared,
    And now i get to settle, all those questions on my chest,
    Answer all those questions id abandoned and id left,
    It feels funny going back, to something i had once neglected,
    Think of then and in-between, and how it had affected,
    My life my thoughts my dreams, and the pathway that i chose,
    I thank the day that i got picked, to take my second go.
    Peace.