Category: My Past

Well, apparently ive changed? I dont know what ive changed from, and to, but apparently ive changed. I guess at one time i was nice and pie to everyone, did everything everyone asked and had all the time in the world for everyone. But now i dont. So im now a worse person becasue i have much more to do? Im a worse person because i dont tread on egg shells around all the members of maxxd, and people just get told straight now?

People talk about me standing back and looking at things from the outside. I think they need to think of my life from the inside more often. I have sacrificed 4 years of my life to a website that we host free to hundreds of people across the world. I have sacrificed hours and hours of my life to maxxd, and the members that use it. But now im a worse person? Me and the maxxd team have raised money for charirty, fought our cause in local papers and on radio, organsied events and meets for FOUR YEARS.. and im a worse person for this?

Maybe i have changed, but its not been through choice. Its been through the stress and pressure brought on from running a car club and working my ass to the bone. Im sorry ive changed, but it would of been impossible to of stayed the same person, and of acheived the many great things that i believe i have achieved already in my short life.
Im off out tongiht for some well earnt drinking.

If anyone reading this is out, holla at’ya boy 🙂

Today has seemed like an eternity. Work dragged, and was unbearably hot again, then world war three started..

Im glad the day has drawn to a close thats for sure! I guess like whats been said in the comments, that we have all got to take a step back and realise what we are arguing about is actually quite stupid, and its done far too much damage to carry on. I think its safe to say that was the most offencive blog post to date! Record number of comments too!

I got quite a bit done on my caddy. I wire brushed all the parts at the rear, and i really need an angle grinder, some sheet metal, and a welder. Cos there are one or two parts that are offending me. It took me about a hour to remove the tigerseal that had been put over some spot welds that run the width of the truck at the back – there didnt actually seem to be any actual reason for the tigerseal, he must of had some left over?

While i have it in this position, i really should look at swapping that rear suspension setup. I might have a ponder about how much work would be involved, and wether or not the caddy will stay together if we take that much stuff off it 😆 It would be ideal, and would mean MINT movement with the airbags.. front, back.. side to side!

In conclusion, sarah, i appologise for letting this situation get out of hand. Im sorry that you were upset about the way the situation on the site was handled, and im sorry if you took offence at the way i spoke to you regarding that situation. I dont want enemies, i just want an easy life. As im sure you do.

Can we now put this situation behind us? For the good of the galactic empire?

Peace.

So, one blog post later and my life has been turned upside down. Ongoing arguments alwals spiral out of control. Especially when they are involving stubbern people. Its especially hard when more than one media is used during communiocation between parties involved in the dispute.

Its just a shame when people are torn in the middle, and those torn people get a majority one sided view of the evidence supporting both parties. For example, ok, maybe my last blog post was a bit OTT. But i didnt sit there and plan it that way. I was deeply fucked off by something someone had done, and the way that a certain person was being made to feel. So i retaliated.

Am i not allowed to say what i feel?

Am i not allowed freedom of speech?

What makes this whole situation 40 times worse, is what started it all off. For some reason the personin question seems to think that me and the moderators on maxxd see, hear and sence everyhting that go’s off on our site. And she seems to think that as soon as something that is posted that offends her (People take offence at different things, so tbh its hard to see unless your directly involved in the situation) that it should be removed.
The moderator that was online at the time didnt realise the severity of the situation, and therefore didnt react in the correct manner. I get back to a dispute, i clean it up – and somehow its my fault?

And from this i have now probably lost H, and totally lost someone i had beef with and who was considered a good freind of mine.

Just to stick up for myself tho, dont patrionise me in text messages sarah. Well done to you for getting a new job, and al that other shit you were blowing out your horn at me. But dont fucking suggest that i have fuck all going for me.
I dont blow my own trumpet, cos i see it as being childish. The fact that you feel the need to, and then call me childish in the same text message? Pfft its too much for my contradiction glands to absorb.

I do belive that karma of some kind exists. I have had loads of bad luck in my life, but every now and then id have a mad stroke of brilliant luck that right cheered me up and made all the bad karma dissapear. I seem to be stuck in a strange kind of bad karma forcefield. I feel that there are people working agaisnt me, in various aspects of my life.

Danny and sy have casued a black cloud to be over the business side of my life. I feel that for as long as this court/ccj shit is going off i cant push myself to my full potential in case the worst case senario happens and i have to pay out money. Dave. Shut up. I know. You’ve told me 3 million time. But that doesnt mean it wont happen!!!

I still feel pressured at work. Its calmed down a bit now but for months ive kinda been doing my job against my will. I wanted to leave, and confroneted the boss about it and he pursuaded me to stop. My attitude towards my job hasnt changed one bit since i was sat in his office telling him i wanted to leave tho.

And i feel that people are working against me in regards my relationship with H. Its not a really heavey relationship, but she makes me happy. And when shes out with her best mate i feel kinda pushed away becasue of the stress casued by the bullshit situation between her best mate and her best mates ex. I do my job on the site, and because its something that she didnt agree with she threw her toys out the cot.

Years ago, when the person in question actually had enthusiasm towards maxxd – and wasnt just using it to get back in with her ex friends that she’d rid herself off when nearly married – i would of done pretty much whatever she asked. She was a good asset to maxxd, a good laugh, and a good friend of mine. She seems to of come back now after THREE YEARS of not wanting ANYTHING to do with maxxd.com – expecting to be treated like a fucking queen.

Someone needs to wake up, smell the coffee and get off her 9 colour flip painted high horse.

Offended? Fuck off and dont read it then!