Category: My Past

for some reason, ive woke up and im in a shit mood. having no money, and knowing im gonna get fuked over by bills at the end of this week doesnt help much. i worked some overtime last week, and ill be gettin the money thru friday. it was supposed to be for my tax on the caddy.. but it looks like it will be for car insurace instead 🙁

appyed for a job at ashfied school, as a IT techie, the wages are shit, but to be fair im not bothered. i need a full time job so that i can sort my mess out.. i can only put it off at the mo as im a temp employee. if i could re-do my life so far, i would NOT of got any loans. its all well and good sayin “yeh ill get a loan pay it off n ill be buzzin” nah. doesnt happen like that, well not for me anyway.

its like i go to work now, work like a bastard, and i dont get to spend any of the money. cos i spent it years ago. roll on being debt free. in about 10 years. :/

glad my blog is up and running again, it feels like i have had no one to turn to. i cant talk to friends about my probs, cos i dont feel comfortable doing so.. and i hate chairty and sympathy. i just want to get my self out of this hole, an back in the front line!

im gonnna try n quit smokin too, i know ive said it before, but i complain about not having any moeny, yet i still find weed to smoke! i think if i gradually stop, i.e slow down, then it will be easyer. mat’s done it, so i can.

i got to get ready for work now. bah.

bye.

0lly.co.uk – bloggin once more 🙂

hello 🙂 im back! unfortunatly i have lost my old blog 🙁 im fuckin gutted! we moved host, and sort of did it on the sly, by moving everything just before we were due to pay. so now we owe them about $220 dollaz, and i have lost my DB. we got all the maxxd.com stuff, so thats all that really matters!

anyway, NEW HOST!! woohoo! its excellent! http://www.x1host.net we have a reseller account, and can make our own little hosting accounts to sell. this is why 0lly.co.uk has its own hosting now, and isnt forwarding 🙂 booyar!

in other news.. life is ok. still got to get rid of the frikkin saxo.. but ive been waiting for a spare 100 quid to tax my other vehicle 🙂 all that shud start happenin the next week or so!

cos ive started a fresh, ive upgraded my bloggin software.. so it looks cooler, and im gonna look for a gallery plugin so i cna have the random foto website built into this 🙂

watch this space 🙂

more later. im tired 😛

i dont no what to think sometimes.. ive said b4 that i want a chick of my own, but i hardly see my friends and family so how do i fit a girl into my life as well? it would jsut get neglected and fail like before.. speakin of before.. i saw my ex girlfriend out the other night, and now all my emotions are all jumbeld up again, i still like her, always have done.. never been able to get her out my head.. but i dont want things to go the way they did b4.. as then it wud turn to shit..

arggghh people say that if a relationship is too hard work, then its not worth it.. then WHY do i still feel like this towards her?

my head hurts a lot :'(

work is meh at the mo.. hard and lots of it.. pretty much 7 days a week every week.. brought home like 360 quid last week tho, so it *is* worth it. dont no how long i can keep it up for tho.. and i tell you what, it has certainly taught me the value of money, cos i REALLY do work hard for it.. and ill never ever waste a day off again.. they are precious and few and far between!

good news! i bought some wheels for my caddy! 😀 yay! bought them off tibbzy, and i love em 🙂 14″ chromies 🙂 yay!

right now im waitin for shel-DON to come round with marajuana, so i can relax as i got work tomora and sunday at 6am.

mehhhhh o_0

..an angel decends from heaven and falls into my arms!

what are the chances of me meeting a girl, who doesnt even know what maxxd.com is, is ABSALUTLY gorgeous and likes me as much as i like her???

😀

ive seen this girl at work for a month or so now, weve chatted a bit, and i noticed a few smiles and stuff comeing from her, but i wasnt sure if she was just being nice. oh boy. i was major underestimating or something.

ive been trying to find her whan im out down mansfield as its a slightly more comfortable athmosphere than metalbox, and sure enough, she had dragged all her mates to coyote JUST to find me on sat night. as soon as i saw her in there we instantly clicked. we were kissing all night, i couldnt keep my eyes off her for a second. she stayed at mine sat night, but ive not seen er since then.

ok, ive been out with girls b4 (obviously) and ive ONCE thought i was in love b4, now im not sayin that i am, but.. i think i might be. she is everything i want in a girl, EVERYTHING.

i hope things dont go wrong, which tbh i cant see them doing. AND whats even better is that she actually works exactly the same shifts as me at the same place! so its not like my shitty once problem causing shifts will get in the way!

😀

its almost all too good to be tru. but it is true! and it is real!

im gonna get ready for work now, so i can see her again. oh her names nic 🙂

bye!