Author: Olly

  • oh shit. day1. non smoker.

    well, mat has convinced me to quit smoking. full stop. i say its gonna be hard at first.. but if i think to myself itsΒ notΒ then i recon i’ll be able to do it.

    all i gotta keep in my head is that i will have nice teeth, fresh breath, more cash, better lungs, and i wont smell like an ashtray. the only part i think is gonna be hard is the inital gettin home after work, tired, need joint to relax part. but as i said before, ive just gotta get it into my head that i dont want a joint. instead, ill have a nice long bath.. soak for a hour.. then do shit thats constructive, instead of sittin down n wasting my brain cells.

    i really love smoking weed tho, but ive gotta look at the bigger picture. my heath, my image, my money. we have said that if we ever went to amsterdam we would still get wasted, but i think anybody who go’s there smokes a bit of the weed πŸ˜‰ the reasons its been hard to quit before is that EVERYONE around me smokes it.. but mat’s quit, and i recon cos its not me on my own, ill be able to do it!

    even writing this is sort of therapy. i just gotta keep thinkin of the benifits, the fact ill have money to spend on my car, on me! (wow i can buy new shit!) and ill get thru this no problem.

    mat has already done a week, and has sort of inspired me. he’s been smokin weed for SEVEN years.. ive only been smoking for 4. so it should theoretically harder for him!

    im off to sleep now, and im not stoned at all.

    wish me luck!

  • later on that same day..

    for some reason, ive woke up and im in a shit mood. having no money, and knowing im gonna get fuked over by bills at the end of this week doesnt help much. i worked some overtime last week, and ill be gettin the money thru friday. it wasΒ supposedΒ to be for my tax on the caddy.. but it looks like it will be for car insurace instead πŸ™

    appyed for a job at ashfied school, as a IT techie, the wages are shit, but to be fair im not bothered. i need a full time job so that i can sort my mess out.. i can only put it off at the mo as im a temp employee. if i could re-do my life so far, i would NOT of got any loans. its all well and good sayin “yeh ill get a loan pay it off n ill be buzzin” nah. doesnt happen like that, well not for me anyway.

    its like i go to work now, work like a bastard, and i dont get to spend any of the money. cos i spent it years ago. roll on being debt free. in about 10 years. :/

    glad my blog is up and running again, it feels like i have had no one to turn to. i cant talk to friends about my probs, cos i dont feel comfortable doing so.. and i hate chairty and sympathy. i just want to get my self out of this hole, an back in the front line!

    im gonnna try n quit smokin too, i know ive said it before, but i complain about not having any moeny, yet i still find weed to smoke! i think if i gradually stop, i.e slow down, then it will be easyer. mat’s done it, so i can.

    i got to get ready for work now. bah.

    bye.

  • 0lly.co.uk Returns!

    0lly.co.uk – bloggin once more πŸ™‚

    hello πŸ™‚ im back! unfortunatly i have lost my old blog πŸ™ im fuckin gutted! we moved host, and sort of did it on the sly, by moving everything just before we were due to pay. so now we owe them about $220 dollaz, and i have lost my DB. we got all the maxxd.com stuff, so thats all that really matters!

    anyway, NEW HOST!! woohoo! its excellent!Β http://www.x1host.netΒ we have a reseller account, and can make our own little hosting accounts to sell. this is why 0lly.co.uk has its own hosting now, and isnt forwarding πŸ™‚ booyar!

    in other news.. life is ok. still got to get rid of the frikkin saxo.. but ive been waiting for a spare 100 quid to tax my other vehicle πŸ™‚ all that shud start happenin the next week or so!

    cos ive started a fresh, ive upgraded my bloggin software.. so it looks cooler, and im gonna look for a gallery plugin so i cna have the random foto website built into this πŸ™‚

    watch this space πŸ™‚

    more later. im tired πŸ˜›

  • mind = dazed and confused.. always..

    i dont no what to think sometimes.. ive said b4 that i want a chick of my own, but i hardly see my friends and family so how do i fit a girl into my life as well? it would jsut get neglected and fail like before.. speakin of before.. i saw my ex girlfriend out the other night, and now all my emotions are all jumbeld up again, i still like her, always have done.. never been able to get her out my head.. but i dont want things to go the way they did b4.. as then it wud turn to shit..

    arggghh people say that if a relationship is too hard work, then its not worth it.. then WHY do i still feel like this towards her?

    my head hurts a lot :'(

    work is meh at the mo.. hard and lots of it.. pretty much 7 days a week every week.. brought home like 360 quid last week tho, so it *is* worth it. dont no how long i can keep it up for tho.. and i tell you what, it has certainly taught me the value of money, cos i REALLY do work hard for it.. and ill never ever waste a day off again.. they are precious and few and far between!

    good news! i bought some wheels for my caddy! πŸ˜€ yay! bought them off tibbzy, and i love em πŸ™‚ 14″ chromies πŸ™‚ yay!

    right now im waitin for shel-DON to come round with marajuana, so i can relax as i got work tomora and sunday at 6am.

    mehhhhh o_0