Author: Olly

well, i sort of failed the first day! scott came round and forced me to smoke weed, honest, he forced me! *rolls eyes* ok, maybe he didnt force me, but he sort of made a few truths ring home!

at the end of the day, it gets dark. lol no but really as much as i want to save up and shit, i also dont want to be a “all work no play” person, which if i stopped smoking weed, i would be. and im not a weed addict, im a substance addict, so if i stopped smoking weed, i would substitute it for somethig else, like beer, and i would go too far and end up gettin caught drunk driving, and i fuckin hate drink drivers.

SO instead of trying to kid myself that im stopping, im gonna gradually cut down, and hopefully one day stop. i am making myself NOT buy any weed during the week, and im gonna try and initally limit it to the weekend. so wish me luck (again)

*hangs head* i have the willpower of a stone.

in other news, heh, i have been buggin my mum for ages to chip in with my dad and buy me a private plate for my 21st birthday. now i said i ONLY want 1 plate. “OLS74R” (OLSTAR) but unfortuatly its a “cherished” plate which basically means they think its cooler than the norm, so they lock it up and auction it off for stupid money. i will still have it one day, but not just yet.

i have found a new plate tho, and i think its pretty damm cool! “B15 OLL” (BIG OLL) well? what do you think? it works out tho after VAT and transfer fee, to be about a grand! :/ which is silly money really. but i really want it and will continue to bug my mum till she caves in!

This is the plate 🙂hehe. years ago, when i 1st bought my golf, i also bought the plate “B19 OLL” but some other BIG guy called olly bought it and i couldnt have it. i was gutted!

anyway, i just finished a 13 hour shift at work. so im gonna go relax, have a bath, and maybe go to bed, i migght stay up tho, see how long i can stay awake for. nah, thats a stupid idea.

sionara.

well, mat has convinced me to quit smoking. full stop. i say its gonna be hard at first.. but if i think to myself its not then i recon i’ll be able to do it.

all i gotta keep in my head is that i will have nice teeth, fresh breath, more cash, better lungs, and i wont smell like an ashtray. the only part i think is gonna be hard is the inital gettin home after work, tired, need joint to relax part. but as i said before, ive just gotta get it into my head that i dont want a joint. instead, ill have a nice long bath.. soak for a hour.. then do shit thats constructive, instead of sittin down n wasting my brain cells.

i really love smoking weed tho, but ive gotta look at the bigger picture. my heath, my image, my money. we have said that if we ever went to amsterdam we would still get wasted, but i think anybody who go’s there smokes a bit of the weed 😉 the reasons its been hard to quit before is that EVERYONE around me smokes it.. but mat’s quit, and i recon cos its not me on my own, ill be able to do it!

even writing this is sort of therapy. i just gotta keep thinkin of the benifits, the fact ill have money to spend on my car, on me! (wow i can buy new shit!) and ill get thru this no problem.

mat has already done a week, and has sort of inspired me. he’s been smokin weed for SEVEN years.. ive only been smoking for 4. so it should theoretically harder for him!

im off to sleep now, and im not stoned at all.

wish me luck!

for some reason, ive woke up and im in a shit mood. having no money, and knowing im gonna get fuked over by bills at the end of this week doesnt help much. i worked some overtime last week, and ill be gettin the money thru friday. it was supposed to be for my tax on the caddy.. but it looks like it will be for car insurace instead 🙁

appyed for a job at ashfied school, as a IT techie, the wages are shit, but to be fair im not bothered. i need a full time job so that i can sort my mess out.. i can only put it off at the mo as im a temp employee. if i could re-do my life so far, i would NOT of got any loans. its all well and good sayin “yeh ill get a loan pay it off n ill be buzzin” nah. doesnt happen like that, well not for me anyway.

its like i go to work now, work like a bastard, and i dont get to spend any of the money. cos i spent it years ago. roll on being debt free. in about 10 years. :/

glad my blog is up and running again, it feels like i have had no one to turn to. i cant talk to friends about my probs, cos i dont feel comfortable doing so.. and i hate chairty and sympathy. i just want to get my self out of this hole, an back in the front line!

im gonnna try n quit smokin too, i know ive said it before, but i complain about not having any moeny, yet i still find weed to smoke! i think if i gradually stop, i.e slow down, then it will be easyer. mat’s done it, so i can.

i got to get ready for work now. bah.

bye.

0lly.co.uk – bloggin once more 🙂

hello 🙂 im back! unfortunatly i have lost my old blog 🙁 im fuckin gutted! we moved host, and sort of did it on the sly, by moving everything just before we were due to pay. so now we owe them about $220 dollaz, and i have lost my DB. we got all the maxxd.com stuff, so thats all that really matters!

anyway, NEW HOST!! woohoo! its excellent! http://www.x1host.net we have a reseller account, and can make our own little hosting accounts to sell. this is why 0lly.co.uk has its own hosting now, and isnt forwarding 🙂 booyar!

in other news.. life is ok. still got to get rid of the frikkin saxo.. but ive been waiting for a spare 100 quid to tax my other vehicle 🙂 all that shud start happenin the next week or so!

cos ive started a fresh, ive upgraded my bloggin software.. so it looks cooler, and im gonna look for a gallery plugin so i cna have the random foto website built into this 🙂

watch this space 🙂

more later. im tired 😛