Author: Olly

Ok, i need help here.. What can i call my blog? I have toyed with many ideas over the last week or so, but i cant find a “Tagline” that i like.. Its to replace what currently says “Insert A Decent Title” at the very top of your screen. I want something clever, yet funny, that describes a page of random ramblings from a paranoid stressed out victim of life 🙂 Any ideas?

In other news.. Wardo’s insurance has gone up by…

£0.00!!!!!!!

Which means we are good to go! I have pre-booked next monday (11th septermber! Ooerr!) as that is our official moving in date, and we are gonna compare lists of shit we need on wednesday. Cos we have got a house to fill! 🙂

Bah, screw you guys.. Im going home..

Well since trax ive had this girl in my head, although i should be distancing myself from her really. She has a boyfriend you see, of about 3 or 4 months and – well.. lets just say things went a bit further than they should of done whilst we were together this weekend. I have been liasing with her since trax, text messages flying back and forth.. And last night she kinda got busted. Her boyfriend found a message i had sent her, deleted it then confronted her with it last night. Its wierd, its as if shes with him for the sake of it. She laughed at the fact he was crying a lot of last night, and says she doesnt love him.

What should I do?

I would fucking break down and die if it happened to me. But, its not like they are married or anything. Ive never cheated on anyone, and she says shes never done anything like this before either. But i just cant get her cheeky smile or fucking sexy body out of my mind. I just hope that the content of her text messages comes from her heart, and not from her head. She wants to do some modelling you see, and some shallow women – i suppose – could use a situation like this to get their foot in the door. Or theres the paranoid view of “She only likes me cos im olstar@maxxd.com” which is something i consider everytime im in this situation.. I would hate for someone to be with me jsut becasue of my position on some website… Im so unconfident in my appearance and what women are gonna think of me.. I see myself as a big fat hairy ugly bastard.. And for someone like her – who could probably go out and get any guy she wanted – to like ME.. I just dont get it..
I have held back form textin her, as i dont want to land her in shit again, but she text me earlier.. its not like shes forgotten about me yet which is a good thing. I want to tell her to leave her boyfriend.. I want her bad!

Oh fuck im so confused right now…

im on the edge of my seat too.. Waiting for a text off wardo.. If he says his insurance isnt gonna be too bad! ITS PARTY TIME!! Me and my mum are going up to the house again tonight.. I think ill probably end up moving in, even if wardo does back out.. I cant see him doing that tho! Rock on bro!

I have told daz too, i said id been to look at a house and that i could be out within a month. I hope his financial situation is ok cos its probably gonna be sooner than that me old fruit pastel! Ill probably visit him a few weeks after i move out and i doubt the house or he will of changed much. I swear that house is cursed! The Stuck in Limbo house!!

So in conclustion.. Im happy, but confused.. excited and nervous.. and i still feel totally blown away by that girl!

EDIT – And, i havent spent any money on weed so far this week (its only been one day you big dummy!) so far so good! Maybe these two massive changes in my life could lead on to me becoming more active, and get fitter etc… Which is something ive wanted to do for ages.. Oh fuck.. i just remembered.. That girl said she could breakdance..

How much is one of them vegas weddings? 😆

Well, me and wardo went to look at that house today. And its great. Its not 3 floors like i was told, but its brand new, has 2 decent sized bedrooms, a bathroom, a downstairs toilet, a living room, and a fully fitted kitchen. There is even a dishwasher!

Wardo has said hes got to check his car insurance doesnt go up too much, if it doesnt, then its all systems go! Were both in the same position in the sence we both want to get out of where we are, and life is about taking risks – and were both up for the risks involved in renting a property.

I hope his insurance doesnt go up too much. I want to move now!!

Ive had a phone call from that girl again. Shes in a situation herself that isnt straight forward, and she rang me to tell me that it didnt look good – not for me like, for her current situation. Its actually a good thing for me – allbeit a bit of a strnage thing to be getting myself into. Id explain more, but for the moment ill leave it at that.

Its mad, for weeks ive been really low, really depressed, and just miserable. Then like a flash of light 2 major things happen that seem to be transforming my very life right in front of my eyes. Call it karma coming back round, or call it good luck.. Who cares.. I jsut know it fucking rules 🙂 And i can see that my not to distant future is going to be a lot brighter than i thought it would be.