later on that same day..

for some reason, ive woke up and im in a shit mood. having no money, and knowing im gonna get fuked over by bills at the end of this week doesnt help much. i worked some overtime last week, and ill be gettin the money thru friday. it was supposed to be for my tax on the caddy.. but it looks like it will be for car insurace instead 🙁

appyed for a job at ashfied school, as a IT techie, the wages are shit, but to be fair im not bothered. i need a full time job so that i can sort my mess out.. i can only put it off at the mo as im a temp employee. if i could re-do my life so far, i would NOT of got any loans. its all well and good sayin “yeh ill get a loan pay it off n ill be buzzin” nah. doesnt happen like that, well not for me anyway.

its like i go to work now, work like a bastard, and i dont get to spend any of the money. cos i spent it years ago. roll on being debt free. in about 10 years. :/

glad my blog is up and running again, it feels like i have had no one to turn to. i cant talk to friends about my probs, cos i dont feel comfortable doing so.. and i hate chairty and sympathy. i just want to get my self out of this hole, an back in the front line!

im gonnna try n quit smokin too, i know ive said it before, but i complain about not having any moeny, yet i still find weed to smoke! i think if i gradually stop, i.e slow down, then it will be easyer. mat’s done it, so i can.

i got to get ready for work now. bah.

bye.