Category: My Past

I have finally aired my true thoughts to nicola. As much as i love her and care for her, we argue too much, and i just feel something isn’t right. So, i have ended it. Sooner rather than later. I feel really shit right now, and i imagine she feels the same. But i cant go back on my word, and i cant forget the reasons i had for doing it. They all appear so cloudy right now, but like last time as soon as i go back on my word i will know it was the wrong thing to do. I know she will hate me deep down, but one day she will thank me for it.

Valentines day. My work colleague came up to me and sort of shook his head at the fact i have made my girlfriend a valentines day card. Why? What’s wrong with that? Is it because i haven’t lined the pockets of some rich card maker? Is it because valentines day to some people is a competition? “lets see how big a card i can buy for my girlfriend” and rose petals on the bed and all that shit…

Djb31st showed me something yesterday, the is probably gonna stay with me for the rest of my life. Mystickies. Its a groovy little plugin for firefox, that once signed up, allows you to leave post-it notes ALL over the internet!!! I have one on here now, telling me to remember to take card and flags home with me haha its truly a fantastic idea, and when you leave the page, then come back to it, there they are!! – I couldn’t survive without posit’s and now i have them IN my screen, as well as around them! Fantastic!

And finally, i have been constructively using some of works time to make VCD’s 🙂 I have burned saw2, and am gonna do the FOG when it finishes. I’m also downloading 4.4gig’s worth of “Prison Break” Man its a good program! 🙂

Weekend? Pfft.. I had to get up very early on saturday, as kev (step-dad) was coming round to help me fix my clio. Well, i say help me, i he fixed it and i just held the torch and tools. He was a total life saver, cos as soon as he was done, i went and had to go to work.

I was working on a building site in notts. Its a new site, so there was no TV, no radio, no microwave – Only a seat, a table, a heater and a kettle. Great. 18 hours later i got to leave, and went home to bed. – We are at my mum’s though so its not that bad. At least there is a working sink in the bathrooms and carpets on the floors!

Work has been pretty shit today, every minute of everyday just about feels wasted. And the amount of outside work i get thrown at me is increasing by the day. I just hope i can sort something soon, cos i can see this all getting too much.

Well its friday again. Usually I’m excited as it signals the end of the week, but i have got so much to do this weekend, i wish this day would last longer! – Scott was supposed to come wednesday to help me sort the clutch cable on my clio. Unfortunately he didn’t, so its still outside my house feeling sorry for its self.

I’m working on saturday night too, so i need a car to get me there. Looks like I’m gonna have to try and fit a cable myself! I know scott does a lot of stuff for me, but if he really needed me for something, id be there. Regardless of whatever else was happening. – EDIT – Kev is gonna come up and help me on saturday morning. Thank the lord!

Work is really dragging now. It just seems like every time i go downstairs, I’m being slotted back into the limbo machine, and time stops. Me and david are finally putting some of our ideas to work, one being a lil online wheel shop. We have talked about it for ages, and now we have the time, and the contacts.

I have managed to find a UK distributor of trainers. SOme good ones too, and i have got a minimum order value off him, and i have worked out that i need about £500 for my first order, sell them on ebay, and i should double my money. Then keep doing that until i have enough cash to get a lil shop 🙂

I love it when a plan comes together.

Oh, and i really need to stop buying domain names, i have far too many!