Category: My Past

I have been invited to join a private adidas only forum. I feel so honored!

My mate told me about it, but i wasnt sure if id get asked to join..

I got my email today! Woo!

Every so often, i see myself getting totally uninteresting. I have had my “Write new post” page open ALL day, and i just couldnt think of anything to start it off with! Ive not really done anything apart from go out with scott in the car. My days are becoming a blurr of similarity.

After trax me, scott and ko have said we’ll stop smoking weed (bwhahaha) If we all try and do it, then its gonna be easier. As if i try and quit alone, scott has some.. or ko.. And visa versa. If we ALL quit, and help each other fill the empty voids of time  that willl suddenly occur, we should have a better chance of actually quitting.

I dont really wanna quit for my health, i wanna quit for financial reasons. If im gonna be renting a house then im gonna need to be very tight with my money. Which means no more subways.. no more weed.. and no more trainers 🙁 I just hope i can get someone to move in with me as then i can split the bills 2 ways and it makes it a hell of a lot easier to live.

My heads up my arse in regards women and relationships at the moment. I want a girlfriend, but i dont want to go thru a traumatic breakup in a few years when i decide to do one. I guesss like stu said on a comment – 3 years is a long time for a relationship to develop, and thats plenty of time for it to fuck up 😆 But knowing me it wouldnt, it would go swimmingly, then id have to break both my heart and the heart of some girl as i board the train destined for the middle of knowhere.

But that doesnt mean i cant be happy, right? I guess i could always travel with a girlfriend, but TBH id be scared to do that in case something happened to her, or in case i met the woman of my dreams half way round the world. But whos gonna want to go out with someone, knowing they are not gonna be around for long. There has to be someone?

I miss those moments chillin out with someone sprawled all over me. I miss the walking round and holding hands. I miss the companionship of a female in my life. But should i try and hold these things off so that i dont get to attached?

Fuck knows.

Ok, so looking at my pictures makes me remember what we were doing most of the weekend. Friday was a drissly afternoon.. Was out int eh car with scott, and IIRC we were all trying to find weed. Most of the afternoon was spent tryignt o track some greenage down. I dont even think we managed to in the end, its dry as a bone!

Saturday was the day of my MOT, so i had to get up fairly early. After i had finished that i went back home and started looking for somewhere else to live on the internet. I then of course got sidetracked and ended up posting crap on one of the many sites in affiliated with – like always 🙂 Then me and dave went to Asda, and we moosed about for a few hours visiting local parks, just bummin about (oh, we’d found weed by that stage 🙂 )

It was then time for me to work, i was in notts at some new housing estate just near john fox audi. If im honest it was the scaryest shift ive ever done. I dont like notts, i dont trust it. Especially when im cooped up in some site containing lots of stuff that was worth nicking. All i heard all ngiht was sirens. Police, Fire and ambulance. And when i say all night, i mean ALL NIGHT. One after the other, constantly!

Sunday was a cool day, i got home in the morning from doing my shift, and went to bed till 12pm. Scott woke me up ringing me saying he was outside. I fell back to sleep, scott woke me up again – but this time i got up and let him in. I got ready, and was finding it very hard to wake up. In true stoner style tho, i waked and baked – and by the time we got to the M1 i was wide awake and raring to go. It was the source show you see. They have one every year and it always rules.

We spent a few hours there, and the headed off back to wards the direction of mansfield, then we decided to go to skeg – so headed off in that direction, but just before we got to the toll bridge we changed ourt minds and drove back towards mansfield. We then went to my hosue so i could get ready, and headed off to LSOM.

Was a good turnout, and the only downside was that it rained! Where the hell has summer gone? 🙁

Then monday. Monday monday monday. bank holidays for me are either made up of work, or NOTHING. I ended up tidying my room, and cleaning trainers. 🙂 I relaced some of my superstars, as i wasnt sure if i liked the arrangement i had goin off. Timmyroob came round and talked about his travelling – it made me green with envy! The thigns he was talking about, and the places/people he had seen and met just sounded amazing. I want to go ASAP, maybe i should try and save enough money to pay my debts off early, and just bum my way around this huge planet of ours? Hitchiking and sneaking on to trains 🙂

Off now to do some “work” – nearly time to go home, then i really must sleep for a hour to take the edge off!

I hate it when i have 3 or so days off, as by the time i sit down to write about what ive done i have forgotten a lot of it. Im listening to a slow track by mary j and ghostface killah and its making me think that this weekend – although i cant remember it all – may be one of the last weekends where i can kick back without a care in the world.

Ive obviously got TRAX next weekend, but after that im probably gonna be moving into a new home and goin deeper into the whole life thing. Ive worked out that based on the amount of money i get paid from MMX3 alone (which isnt really a shit load) i can afford to pay my debts, and afford a flat/house at £295 a month (+ bills). It leaves me a measly amount a week to live off, but hopefully with the stuff me and dave are doing and the security i can earn a bit more than that, and can afford to still have a few luxuries in my life, like food.

Its gonna be very tough to start with. In fact if ive got to do it by myself, its gonna be VERY tough ALL the time. Im looking forward to it in some ways and not lookin forward to other aspects of it.. im gettin a bit fed up anyway with staring at things that constantly remind me of past relationships and happy times. I think i need a change, a new chapter in my life.

Im just not lookin forward to being a pez for a bit. I hate the thought if not having any money to buy things to cheer me up – like mars drinks – and having to stay in bored cos i have no cash to wax on crap.

Ah well, its not for a few weeks yet. Trax next weekend which should be interesting! There has been talk about people playing pranks on other people within and outside the club. I just hope things dont turn sour, and the people being pranked see the funny side of it. I dont care what people do to me – unless they fuck with my trainers – then blood will be spilled. Savvy? 😉

Il write more about my weekend tomorrow when i review my photos, as im really tired and really cannot remember anything about the weekend at this moment in time.

Sionara.