Author: Olly

Im not used to being at MMX3 on a monday. This is reallyu gonna shake my week up! We have that meeting with the princes trust tomorrow, and thats the final one. So hopefully we’ll know by the end of the week if we got it, and if we do then we can relax and take our time doing things in 2007 so that they get done properly.

It also means i can take the time to make a few structural changes to the maxxd setup. Currenty we have a server and host a shit load of sites, i need to downgrade a little, as we need to spend our time on making money, not fixing wank servers that are hosted by COMPLETE useless fucking twats who call themselves Layered Technologies! NEVER EVER EVER go with them. They may start out cheap, but its gets costly, and you never can pay too much for GOOD support. LT have never heard of customer service! Bloody bastards!

Anyway, i have been looking for a partially managed reseller account, with unlimited resources (yes, there are some available) and with the ability to import accounts from cpanel/WHM. So far NONE have the option to do this. I have found many UK based web hosts, who offer VERY good deals, but all have their own custom made control panle software. So id have to re-created each account one-by-one. Erm, no thanks! But we do need to cut costs..

If any of you know of anyhting that may suit my needs, then holla. If there isnt one in the world with CpanelWHM compatibility, then i require FULL SSH access, so i can copy all shit across at once. These ones i have found only give partial SSH access, so again, i’d have to do each account one by one. 🙁

I have to go home now, and spend some of the money i dont have.

If Layered Technologies made lager.. It would be the most foulest tasting horrible lager in the world.. Probably..

My mind has been doing backflips this last week or so. I have had so much on in regards working and everyhting, that i havent been paying enough attention to my feelings for Gemma. Of course i have been expressing emotion to her, but i havent let the feelings develop in me enough to be able to handle all that is going off. I know that might not make sence to you, but it does to me. I dont think i have ever met any one who seems as compatible with me as she does. We like the same stuff, and when she isnt with me i think about her all the time, and miss her like mad. I have fallen in love with her, and unlike other relationships i would do anything she asked of me, whenever she asked it.

So why is it then, that i still think about my ex from time to time? I dont mean fantasize about her or anything like that, i just remember her every so often and it makes me sad. I have no fucking idea why tho, the relationship was doomed, she annoyed the hell out of me, she was clingy, dependant and didnt have her own life – she became part of mine. We used to argue all the time, fall out over everyhting and to be honest i grew to dispise her becasue of the amount of previous sexual partners she admitted she’d had. I dont remember the exact number – but it was HUGE. And ever since that day i couldnt shake that thought from my head.

I guess the problem is that when i got with her, she moved in, and stayed there pretty much every day for a year and a half. Now imagine you get a dog, and he’s around you for a year and a half, but he shits everywhere, and chews your superstars. If he died or ran away after a year and a half, you’d be sad – even though he was a little bastard. I guess thats what im feeling, cos i certinaly dont feel an attraction to her any more.

I just want to move on now, and develop my ties with Gem. I love her very much and cant let her go. I asked myself a question when i was in my last relationship. it was;

“Can you see yourself with her in 5 years time?”

The answer before was a downright NO.

The answer this time, is a definate YES.

Do you people belive in soul mates?

Hahah.. Today we went to pc world and bought ourselves a printer. Some other business “things” have progressed further today, and hopefully me and dave may be celebrating something next tuesday. I wont say any more on the matter, as it wil probably Jinx it!

Things are going great at the mo, everything seems to be happening for a reason. Things happen that force us to do stuff, and that leads on to other stuff and its all just getting better and better.

More updates tomorrow, im nackered! 🙂

Im sat here awaiting the clock to strike 17:00 so i can leave this place and go home. I have to nip home, then to my dads, then i have to go to the office and work on some bits and bobs for a few hours. Anyway, whilst i was checking emails etc this morning i got a PM off a member of the maxxd site staff regarding something or other. And this discussion went on to talk about the DIR. He also mentioned that he personally thought we had done things in the wrong order, and proceeded to give me his opinion on what we should have done.I have no issues with people giving us constructive criticism, but i didn’t see this as being constructive at all. When i look back at the way we have gone about things, i see that we have taken the best, safest and most effective path to get to the stage we are at now.

We were at one point both working full time, for random companies. Whilst we were doing this we ran Maxxd.com and made that the name it is today. Then we slowly went down to 3 days a week, and worked on maxxd stuff 2 days a week, and the next stage is to move onto full time work on maxxd things.

If we’d of tried to get the DIR 100% up and running whilst still in full time work, well, it wouldn’t be possible. You cant do two jobs at the same time! And if we’d jumped in head first since day one, we’d both be so financially crippled by now that we’d both of probably OD’d on crack and died 😆

I quite often get the impression that NO ONE has any faith in me, or the things i do. I speak to my parents and they don’t really seem to care. My dad seems more bothered about his new family, than what his own flesh and blood is doing with himself [although he did seem to show more interest tonight, when i went for dinner there. That kinda helped a bit]. And although my mother shows an interest i can see deep down she doesn’t have faith, and that she’d much prefer me to get a boring 9-5 job like every other sheep on the planet. I just want my parents to be proud of me.

Well, fuck it all. I couldn’t give a fuck if it takes us 3 more years of struggling, scrimping and saving, i am never going back to work for anyone ever again. And im also post the point of caring whether or not people have any faith in what we are doing. I know that me and dave will be able to do the things we say, and i KNOW that in 3 years time we will be looking back and laughing at the people that didn’t have any faith.

You’d of thought our friends would be happy for us? That we are progressing our lives and making a go of things, whilst the rest of the world plods on. My mum mentioned today that her boss – the big boss man of crown in the UK – said he envied ME. And the reason he envied me is because im making a jump, im risking it all. Whereas he had always taken the easiest option.

Next time you’re faced with a decision, and can either chose a easy way, or a hard way – choose the hard way. you’ll be surprised at how satisfying it is to achieve something under your own name, instead of someone else’s.

Think Big. Aim High. Fuck the Poleece.