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From time to time everyone makes mistakes, and sometimes something you do no matter how harmless it may seem it the time, may turn out hurtin the people who are closest to you.

One of the worst thing’s about hurtin the people closest to you – especially when you feel as depressed as i do – is that you feel completley empty, and nothin can take that feeling away, except the sound of one persons voice.

Im writin this now and i feel like a fool, i feel like a letdown, but on top of it all i feel angry with myself as if i had thought things through i could of avoided all this. I feel as if i could of lost the most important thing in my life right now.

This couldnt of come at a worst time either, as it is mine and gemma’s 6 month anniversary tomora. Happy 6 months babe they have been the happiest 6 months i have had in a long time. I love you and im sorry for bein a retard.

I arrived home last night, to find my beloved trevor fish on his side and looking a bit discoloured. I paniced, and immediatley changed his water so that it was fresh. Whilst he was out of his main bowl and in the temp one that i put him in while hes being cleaned he started tilting loads to his side. It was so upsetting seeing him like that. He has been so strong and fought it off for so long.

I put him back in his main tank but left the bridge out. I thought id leave out the chance of putting something potentially infected back in his tank. He seemed OK to be honest, wasnt swimming on his side any more, but his balance was all fucked up. I gave him some snap and went out for the night.

I came home and the first thing i did was check on him and he still seemed OK. He didnt look right, but i thought he might jsut be trying to get better. I went to sleep with a little tear in my eye, and woke up about 7am to find him floating on the top of the tank.

To say he’s a little £2.50 fish, i was really really upset.

I have jus told gemma and she seemed upset too. I dont care what she says, im buying another fish tonight. I need to have a fishy now. I want trev back tho 🙁

Anyway, im so going to kill the woman in that pet shop. I cant exactly take a dead fish to work with me so i havent exactly got proof, but im gonna go in and moan like fuck!

I could honestly cry 🙁

R.I.P Trevor. 🙁

Me and gemma went out and bought a new tank, and a new fish the other day. Now either reggie (the new fish) or the new tank, or the new stuff for “cleaning” the water – has caused reggie to die, and take margaret with him.

I wasnt too bothered when reggie died, as we only had him about a week. But we have had marge for weeks and she was trevs bird. 🙁
Now we are really worried trev will die as it might of been an infection. If he does im gonna take him down to that fucking pet shop and go insane. Trev is my first fish, and the bestest. If he dies then so does the woman in the shop.