Category: My Past

why were women made so at a certain time every month, they become a complete selfish heartless bitch? i know that probably ist true about all females, but nic has really fucked me off today. basically because “im not as loving anymore” she basically ignored me all night, all mornin, then when i get up to go this mornin, as she knew i had to, she flips!

wtf?

she may of got away with treating her other bf’s like shit, and they always go crawling back but i have done nothign wrong, so im not gonna conform!

i dont no what i want any more.

what do ya do? i think i like someone else as well, a mates ex, and if im honest, im not 100% happy with nic, well, sometimes i am, sometimes im not! arggggg.

what do i do?

ok, good news, daz has a job which means he can pay his bills, and i dont get kicked out. 🙂 some random fabricating and welding job, suits him, he gets praised for good work all the time (he is a very good welder) and he gets paid loads. buzzin 🙂

im goin up to mini marquees today to fix a pc, so if the boss is there i may just ask him about that job! see if i can charm him into lettin me have the job right away hehe 🙂 if not i gotta wait for the ad to be published in the chad! grrrr

come to the conclusion about my love life, and i think im happy. i know it sounds wierd me saying that i think im happy, but my head is a general shed most of the time so im not sure of awt nowadays! im gonna stay with nic, as shes a nice person, and has a lovely ass 🙂 and she says she loves me loads, so i guess that means she will be fathfull. we’ll see how it go’s anyway!

the situation im my house is currently quite funny, i seem to be blaggin it, and NEVER buying the milk, or bread, because of the fact we all lead seperate lives. mat needs milk for tea for him and his bird, so he has to buy milk, and bread too, and daz is pretty much the same, and cos they eat at diff times and stuff, they never see who buys the milk and bread so i get away with not buying anything! haha, i buy my food, just not the day to day shit, and trust me, we use a LOT of milk, bread, toilet rolls etc etc etc 🙂

oh, and i got my ipod. 😀 got 799 tracks on it at the moment, i had it at work last night, and i didnt listen to it for 1 hour MAX out of a 8 hour shift, and it lasted al night, and i only heard 2 tracks twice! praise the apple gods!

im tired… ZZzzzZZZZzzzzz nite nite..

ok first, my N key is playin up, so excuse me if i miss a few now and then! second, i got girl trouble.

basically im i a relationship. and i cant figure out if i want it and im happy, i want ONE but not this one, or i dont want one and im not happy. ya get me?

nic is a lovely girl, and the good times are fantastic, but there are one or 2 things about her that really wind me up. 1 is that i dont no her past, and she talks as if he has been around a lot, which puts me off, but then i think, well shit, so have i, and so has 50% of the population!

another thing, is that she is 18, and is just becomeing an adult. now although she clames to of lived away from home for a year, she does not seem to have the independance and knowledge a nest leaver should have. i.e. she uses LOADS of washing up liquid when you only need a smidgin, 😉 and she is very wastefull when it comes to food and stuff. she is quite immature at times, and i dont have the patience.

but then i think, in this next year she will start to grow up properly, become less immature, and become a much sounder person.

time will tell i guess.

im still stuck in the limbo that is metalbox. same shit, everyday. im still waiting for mr maddox to sort me a job out at mmx3.com which is in walking distance of my house, which means i can sell saxo and not have to worry about havin a car for a bit. BUT i cant do anything till i got that job. grrr.

got 3 new pairs of trainers, some bo black superstars wi white soles and a mad pattern on them, some white ultrastars that are basically bling, and some random cumfy adidads ones for when i wear blue 🙂

and ive set a random forum up for a guy – www.excelsagaforum.com – its about some very bizzare manga experimetal cartoon, ive seen the first episode and its very, VERY strange. im gonna take a look at some of the other episodes cos apparently the first one is a bit “erratic” lol.

i can feel myself falling asleep as i type, so im gonna make sure i aint ball’sed up any of the words, save it, and hit the sack. after ive cleared up the mass of clothes on my bed 🙁

oh yeah, i got a ipod! well, i won one on ebay, but it hasnt come yet, hopefully it will come today. *crosses fingers*

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ive not added one post on here since i turned 21! 🙂

i got this \/ for my bday, i was very very happy when i saw it 🙂

well, 21, i dunno you no, i seem to feel very grown up, seems that over my week off, i have ACTUALLY become a year older, i know i HAVE actually become older, but it seems like i have mentally aged a year as well.

this time next month, mark my words, i will be progressing my life in the sence i will be finishin the saxo off, clearing my garage out to put my caddy in, and starting work on the caddy! i have saved up some cash to start tidying saxo, gearbox n stuff, nothings stoppin me now!

me and nic are still together, im pretty happy, but i couldnt say wether or not i will still be with her in a year. i dunno, prob me just being negative.

ive quit everything but weed as well, as i was still dabbeling in a few other things. cant afford em, and i cant be doin with the effect wether they be good or bad.

AND. im gonna buy a ipod, they are cool as fuck. 🙂

buisness things are lookin good too, goin to see the accountant to sort a few things and we can release our little venture 🙂

peece out for now 🙂