This weekend, i made 3 revelations.
Me and nic finally finished the bedroom, well, sort of! I made the bed, layed the carpet and then collapsed.. but the wait was worth it!
Might update again later, in a good mood, so wanna get this work done then go home! – So i might not 😉
Ok, quite a lot to blog about today. Today is mine and nicola’s 1 year anniversary, so we are celebrating later by laying a carpet, building a bed, then having champagne, strawberries and cream, in the BATH! il take a foto if i can – for my anniversary present, nic has bought me a really nice ring (pictured below) and i am gonna take her into town and buy her a nice expensive piece of jewelry, as im crap at finding things myself. – The bedroom is nearly decorated, hence building a bed and fitting a carpet, that’s if she can decide on which one she wants!
its friday again, and i just cant believe how fast the weeks are going! – thought it was wednesday on thursday again, i think my memory is slowly slipping away (again) i was on a downer last night, because i ran out of weed, and i have no money till wednesday. I dont like saying im an addict, but i am. I guess everyone is addicted to some things tho, some people are addicted to smoking cigarettes, some people are addicted to drinking coffee. Im just addicted to something that is slowly giving me cancer and bronchitis, but gets me HIGGHHH! @_@
Dave has told me there will be some security work soon, so hopefully i can start saving, clearing, and buying again SOON! I think ill start with my debt, as then i have no weight on my shoulders, and i can actually spend the wages i get paid rather than pay bills off. **word of advice kids, DONT GET LOANS OR CREDIT CARDS! its not big, and you’ll regret it when you get older!**
I spent a lot of today, reading this guys “universe of website’s”, he has a very long serving blog, but then has a newer blog written by his alter ego, that is addicted to ” methamphetamine and benzodiazepines” (i can’t even SAY them!) and he go’s on to record how he’s feeling when he’s trying to stop, and all the experiences he go’s through. I found reading it was quite interesting, as i was looking into someone’s life that is sort of in a similar boat to me, but on the other side of the world! – Obviously his experiences are greater than mine, but i still feel that i can empathise with the guy, because his drug journey is quite similar to mine. He’s tried most things ( a few more than me like) and is now addicted to one of the things he experimented with as a kid, much like me.- So ill think ill stick around his site, and make sure he’s alright 🙂
today, im gonna leave work happy. not happy because i got paid today and already i only have £14 left, not happy because my new camo adidas jacket still hasn’t come, and definatly not happy knowing the amount of paperwork i have got to do at home is taller than me..
im happy because my new website (www.superstarDB.com) is taking off! and the members are rolling in!!
got the maxxd meet tonight, im happy happy happy 🙂
i guess even though i have a loving girlfriend, and a bunch of mates that got my back, i still feel very alone sometimes. i feel that no one really understands me, and i HONESTLY beleve that no one listens to me. even when i talk to my mum she hums and nods and doesn’t really pay any attention to what im saying. and it gets really annoying. i really want to make a difference, i want to prove to people im not worthless, that im reliable, and that i can do the things i talk about.
i guess im sick of waiting tho. constantly waiting for this, and for that.. mainly waiting for people to do something.. before i can do something else, but a lot of it is just me being lazy. i really should sort my life out. i have 3 car’s again, and STILL haven’t sold my saxo.. i have been selling it for 2 years now!! haha
things in waiting to do right now..
a) sort my car number plate out
b) sell my saxo
3) do my caddy up more + fix it
f) put my polo thru a service
6) start security work
7) save up for a holiday
8) finish decorating my bedroom
the list could go on, i just dont want to be reminded of all the shit ive gotta motivate my lazy ass to do. Ill try and garage my caddy, and clean up the saxo this week, as they are little jobs that will free up cash etc.
jobs and maxxd.. where do i start? i was supposed to be using my new skills as a security officer to get some night security work, and start raking a bit of cash in to clear some debts.. that allows me to move out of daz’s and get a flat.. for moi and nicola.. but now dave has said he’s not doing that any more, he’s gonna get a normal job again, as he needs the money.
i think im still gonna do the security work, as its a good way of gettin a lot of cash in a short space of time. i dont think ill do it forever tho. but ill defiantly keep it in my mind as id love to start a security company one day. fingers in pies n all that.
over the last few days i have been dwelling over a new idea i had. scott introduced me to a place, that would be PERFECT for some kind of permanent cruise location. and since hearing the police are clamping down on MFN, with asbo’s and shit, the timing couldn’t be perfect.
i just need to find out who the location belongs to, and see if they will sell it! (or rent it)
bedrooms nearly decorated, me and nicola had a whole bunch of arguments over the weekend, its because she takes painting SO seriously! i think im probably one of the most laid back people on the planet!
work to do anywho, catch u later potata’